Week 41: Adrift
Yet again, I don’t know what to write this week. I’ve started this entry, gone back, erased it, and started it again at least six times. What is there for me to do, except plug away at Shattered Skies? Tasakeru has stalled and so has Silent InvenTOYry. The only other thing I’m working on on a regular basis is my streaming. It feels pointless to write a Blogress Report when there’s nothing notable to report on.
This feeling of being directionless isn’t new, and I fear it’s not going away any time soon. Tasakeru has been my life’s driving purpose for most of the last twenty years, and now that it’s hit a wall, I don’t know what else there is. I just keep doing what I’ve been doing, as it usually gets me through the day well enough. If life were a work of fiction, I’d start out on some empowering journey of self-discovery… but that’s not me. I don’t have the time or the resources to go out and find myself. Even if I did, I’m not sure I’d like what I find.
I’m not depressed, I’m just… drifting. Going through the motions. Ennui, I believe is the term. I don’t know what else to do, other than try to keep going.
– BHS
- Tasakeru Book I: Without a Name: PUBLISHED (tinyurl.com/tasakerubook1)
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- Shattered Skies: The Morning Lights, Chapter 46: 4.5 pages done
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